Heavenly Father, It appears as if I’ve been doing this whole following You thing wrong for a while now. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you saved my soul more than twenty years ago, and I am eternally grateful. At the age of six, you didn’t save me from a life of blatant sin…apart from talking back to my mom. But I know you saved me. But what amazes me even more is what you have done in my life since, and that You still want to do more. And I stand before you now, to apologize for all the times I’ve shut down and delayed the…
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Cloudy: When My Self-Worth Is Hard To Find
This past week was rough for some reason. I found myself reacting to things purely out of emotion, being overly critical, and worrying way too much. I’m pretty sure that when my sweet husband mentioned he was missing a vitamin from his nightly routine, I took it personally, threw the TV remotes in frustration, went and got the pill, and then started to cry. His follow up question was definitely warranted. “Are we really crying over vitamins?” Even though I realized the ridiculousness of the whole situation, I had to answer yes, but admit I had no idea why. Part of what I’ve learned through working with Celebrate Recovery is…
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Vantage Point: Seeing Life Through My Big God
In the past year or so, I have been learning the importance of having an accurate vantage point, especially when it comes to how I see myself. Too often, how I feel about myself directs what I believe to be true about myself. And we all know that that’s not always the most positive vantage point! I need to be constantly reminded that I am who God says I am- a chosen, beloved daughter of His. One of my new favorite worship songs says it well: “I am chosen, not forsaken. I am who You say I am. You are for me, not against me. I am who You say…
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A Heart Revival: Poised to See God Move
“For it is God who works in you to will and act in order to fulfill His good purpose” Philippians 2:13 (NIV) A year or so ago, if you had asked me what I thought about old-fashioned church revival services, I would have described them as “extra services that go on way too long, when I could be doing a lot of other things”. With this being my mindset surrounding revivals, you can see why I was confused to see my husband’s face light up when he talked about preaching or singing at them. He truly has a passion for church revivals; and I really wanted to act like I…
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Everything Under the Sun: Navigating the Seasons Of Life
When I was 11, my family moved from the metropolis of Lexington, Ky to rural Henry County. Only an hour and half separates the two, but I assumed, at that point, that we officially lived in the country. Compared to Lexington, the little town with no stop lights was the country. However it wasn’t until my husband and I recently moved to Bagdad, Ky (yes, you read that right) that I truly saw what living in the country looked like. Immediately, my favorite part of living in Bagdad was the picturesque scenery, the rolling farm lands. It amazed me that God made something that beautiful and let me live in…
